Discovering Your Passion Is A Process

December 1, 2017

 I watched a very interesting video yesterday regarding that phrase people use about following what you're passionate about. One thing that stood out to me the most was when the speaker in the video said,


"Something a lot of successful people have in common is they go through various situations  that eventually help them discover what they are suppose to be in life, that you don't automatically for example, just wake up and say I'm going to be a writer and write a book that's going to sell millions of copies, and I'm going to be a New York best selling author." 


Unfortunately, it just doesn't start that way. We all experience different things in our life that are going to shape us, prepare us, and lead us to what we're actually meant to be. We aren't always going to know what are dream is automatically because it's something that we eventually discover along the way. This is something that I've gone through myself as an artist without even realizing it. A lot of times people think that when they see a successful person they think that person must have it SO together, they just knew from the beginning what it is they wanted to be in life, and that's not always the case. Don't think that you need to have all the answers right this second. Sometimes it takes you doing different things and experiencing all these other ways of making money before you discover what you're actually meant to be. 


Growing up, I spent a lot of my free time sketching. I was obsessed with anything that allowed me to express myself and to just be super creative. Any school project that involved art, I always excelled at. It was the ONE thing I knew that I could do right, because I just loved it THAT much. I remember being in elementary school and always hearing that question, "what do you want to be when you grow up?"  and without really thinking about it I always just said "I don't know, I might be a doctor or something..." What's crazy to me about this is that I think as kids we always hear "you should be a lawyer, or just be a doctor" not because it's the best job to have in the whole world, but because we're taught to think at such a young age that that's the only way we could be successful and make lots of money, and we start to BELIEVE that b/s that they're feeding us is the truth, and we don't question it. I never knew at that time that being an artist could be an actual career choice, because i was never told that I could be successful doing something that I was already in love with, that I enjoyed doing with every inch of my soul. It was too easy I thought. I always felt like if I told people I wanted to be an artist when I grow up, they would never take me seriously. There would probably be little side remarks thrown here and there about how low my income would be, or that I'm wasting my time because I wouldn't get far in life doing that (which a lot of people still actually believe); So I scratched the idea of a job that involved art out of my head. 


As I got older and went to middle school that's where my love for computers actually developed. I would always mess around with editing programs on the computer, nothing as advanced as photoshop though; very basic. I never even thought about how this was eventually going to impact me in the future. Once l was in high school...I still never gave that "what do you want to be" question much thought. Nothing ever seemed to feel right, it was like I was floating through life without a care in the world because I felt eventually I'll just figure it out somehow. I graduated a year earlier, and I remember all of my friends already knowing what college they wanted to go to, and what they all wanted to major in and there I was, still as lost as ever without a clue. It was that exact moment I said screw it, I'm going to art school (still not even knowing WHAT I wanted